Killpop has Dropped!
My latest release “Killpop” has just dropped on YouTube! It would be neat if you would go give it a listen sometime.
For background: Killpop was originally written by Corey Taylor from Slipknot with a specific and commonly misunderstood meaning: “the song is my reflection on my relationship with music. That's who the 'she' is. And not just music, but the music industry in general…how much I still love making music, but also how much I just hate the business side.”
To expand on the meaning behind my version – I’d say it is consistent, but less directly a conflict with the music industry, and more an attempt of a love song honoring my own struggle in creative process, for finding my place in this world, and for fighting my tendency to sabotage my own goals. In addition, I can’t deny there is usually an element of my expression of love for Shelyn in my work. It’s here too.
Killpop
She's sticking needles in her skin, I turn with an ugly grin
Her canvas doesn't leave a lot to fantasy
But her peace of mind can't stay inside the lines
It's so confusing, the methods that she's using
She knows she shouldn't leave a mark that I can see
Will she ever find one million of a kind
It's cold and lonely, but that's because she told me
Lost inside her dirty world, no one hurts this pretty girl but her
Oh, she's beautiful, a little better than I deserve
You are not insane, please tell me she won't change
Maybe I should let her go
But only when she loves me
How can I just let her go
Not until she loves me
She's drowning in herself again, my God, what a lovely sin
I guess there's nothing left to do but have my way
She can feel it's right, so she doesn't close her eyes
She smiles and answers, it doesn't seem to matter
Lost inside my dirty head, something tells me I'm the one who's kept
Oh, so volatile, a little better than a girl defiled
Ooh, I need the pain, please tell me she won't change
Maybe I should let her go
But only when she loves me
How can I just let her go
Not until she loves me
We were meant to be together
Now, die and fucking love me
We were meant to hurt each other
Now, die and fucking love me
Die and fucking love me
Die and fucking love me
Die and fucking love me
